BUT! In my defense, sitting here reading through my last blog. That was 9 months ago. Guess what? Nothing has changed! Yes, we are STILL waiting to find out when we can finalize. We have moved and up until a month AFTER we got here, California STILL didn't know the answers to our questions. Our new state can't really figure out how we managed to move with our son. Who isn't our son yet. And who knows if he ever will be. I received a call today to meet with our new social worker and do yet another home study. Our third since starting this whole ridiculous process. How stinking frustrating is this?? No wonder there are so many kids in the system. No wonder everyone things negative things about adoption. And the sad thing is, most of the horror stories we thought about adoption before we started are tame compared to what we have actually had to deal with.
Ok, I just had to completely wipe out the 18 paragraphs plus that I just wrote about the behavior problems. The world wide web doesn't need that.
I am trying to be positive here, through it all I remain...amazed by His grace.
Jesus' sufferings
So in my devotion today, I happened to be reading a commentary on Matthew 26. Where Jesus goes into the Garden of Gethsemane to pray.
I found it interesting that they paralleled that with the Garden of Eden:
"He who made atonement for the sins of mankind, submitted himself in a garden of suffering, to the will of God, from which man had revolted in a garden of pleasure."
(http://www.biblegateway.com/resources/commentaries/?action=getCommentaryText&cid=48&source=2&seq=i.47.26.7)
It went on to explain that when Jesus was praying, he had such an overwhelming sorrow that the actual words used(Greek I think) "denote the most entire dejection, amazement, anguish, and horror of mind; the state of one surrounded with sorrows, overwhelmed with miseries, and almost swallowed up with terror and dismay."
That really brought me up short. What was I just whining about yesterday? Good grief! Jesus was about to endure the most terrifying torture and death imaginable and yet, he prays "Not my will, but yours be done,"...
I found it interesting that they paralleled that with the Garden of Eden:
"He who made atonement for the sins of mankind, submitted himself in a garden of suffering, to the will of God, from which man had revolted in a garden of pleasure."
(http://www.biblegateway.com/resources/commentaries/?action=getCommentaryText&cid=48&source=2&seq=i.47.26.7)
It went on to explain that when Jesus was praying, he had such an overwhelming sorrow that the actual words used(Greek I think) "denote the most entire dejection, amazement, anguish, and horror of mind; the state of one surrounded with sorrows, overwhelmed with miseries, and almost swallowed up with terror and dismay."
That really brought me up short. What was I just whining about yesterday? Good grief! Jesus was about to endure the most terrifying torture and death imaginable and yet, he prays "Not my will, but yours be done,"...
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